Heartbreak

I've felt heartbreak before. I've lost loved ones, I've ended long relationships, I've been betrayed. Nothing was like the heartbreak of May 2018. The loss was overwhelming. It was the death of a 16 year old relationship. It was the death of us as a couple, not her as a wife, but to my mind, …

I Went There Again

I went home again during work. I was kind of hoping to catch her there before she went to pick up Sarah. I didn't really think she'd be up to no good, but it crossed my mind. I wanted her to be there so it would be something different again. Maybe she'd be in the …

Hypnotherapy

I've had two sessions so far with a hypnotherapist. She's quite a wonderful lady. She talks to me for a bit then has me close my eyes and visualize to help heal my body from my sickness and heal my mind from the trauma. It's been tough but helpful so far. I don't know much …

Not Going to Live Like This Anymore

Something I wrote last night: I've had it with the anger and sadness. The looking back at a painful past and worrying about an uncertain future. The hateful thoughts and the desire for revenge. I don't want it anymore. If my wife is going to treat me like I'm the king of her world, I'm …

Dinner with The Enemy

It was not a good weekend. To begin with, I've been overworked and all I feel is constant soreness and exhaustion. I need a break from work and I will get one starting this weekend but in the meantime, I'm struggling to make sure all my clients are taken care of first. I'm tired and …