Uncertainty

After all I've been through in life, I think I've finally learned to embrace uncertainty. There are no guarantees. Not even marriage guarantees a future with another person, but we should've known that from the start, shouldn't we have? The thing is, we don't go through the ritual of the marriage ceremony thinking that anything … Continue reading Uncertainty

Out of the Black

I've been fighting a battle with myself. The battle to care or not care, to love or not love, to hate or not hate. I guess I was just getting worn down by it all because I was falling into these bouts of depression. I began to avoid communicating altogether. After all, it was just … Continue reading Out of the Black

Reflecting on an Undocumented Session

The last time I saw HT in therapy, I didn't provide the full details of the session in a blog post. We mostly discussed my health but at the end of the session, there was an exchange about Carol that I've been thinking about: "She had to do something so terrible to realize that what … Continue reading Reflecting on an Undocumented Session

Anniversaries, Emotions, Triggers, etc.

At the beginning of the month, I took Carol out to celebrate our anniversary. The night before I took her out, I asked her if she remembered what happened on that day a year ago. Of course, she didn't. She doesn't write things down so she won't remember significant dates outside of birthdays and whatnot. … Continue reading Anniversaries, Emotions, Triggers, etc.