The Day We Do Not Speak Of

As it goes every weekday, my alarm woke me up so I headed to the bathroom for my morning shower. Everyone else in the house was asleep, having no obligations for the day. As I stepped into the shower, it occurred to me what day it was. I rolled my eyes and muttered, “Oh, Christ.” …

Reflecting on an Undocumented Session

The last time I saw HT in therapy, I didn't provide the full details of the session in a blog post. We mostly discussed my health but at the end of the session, there was an exchange about Carol that I've been thinking about: "She had to do something so terrible to realize that what …

Musings of a ‘Nice Guy’

Warning: messy post of thoughts from a betrayed spouse. It's been about a year since the betrayal. Lately, the day has come and gone largely unnoticed over the months, but the day and month together is hard not to notice. Still, I'm not going to acknowledge it out loud in any way. This is all …

Vacation Time

As I've mentioned a few times before, Carol and I had an argument early last year regarding her desire to go on vacation sans husband or kids. I fought against it, and Carol responded by telling me she wanted a divorce. Then she cried and blah blah blah, no such separation occurred until I told …

Photographs

April 10-16 For reasons too complicated and boring to explain, I had to organize my family's digital photo library. I moved a whole bunch of photos from one device to another and organized them by date. They were mostly photos I had taken in the last 2 years but there were also a number of …

Masks

I've mentioned Lydia before but not by name. During our weekend getaway, it was Lydia who had contacted Carol, in tears, over the state of her store and Rick's lack of help. Speaking of the weekend getaway post, I can't believe how detailed I got with my sexual adventures. How embarrassing! Let me tell you …

Learning to Love Again

What can I say? Things have been really good. We've made a ton of progress over these last seven months or so. I had a great hypnosis session with which I had a lot of fun finding a creative way to write about. This week, we will see our marriage counsellor for the first time …

Jack, Carol, Jennifer, Rick

It's been a very eventful final few weeks for Carol at work. I decided I wouldn't post about it until it was all done and over with. In the meantime, I'd been thinking a lot about Jennifer, sympathizing with her, so I thought I'd post about her. Then I wanted to get the grand finale …

Do You Know Jack?

Yesterday, I made my blog private and removed all my followers as a precautionary measure. I wasn't sure if I wanted to continue blogging. You see, blogging was a major step out of my comfort zone. I do like writing and writing about the troubles in my life is therapeutic but I don't like the …

Jennifer

Imagine this. You are a wife and mother of two. Your husband is a manager/part owner of a group of stores that are owned by your in-laws. You have a job doing some office work for their company. Just a little accounting and whatnot, then you can spend the rest of your time with your …