What’s Been Going On? October – November

It seems that, starting in October, I began to slip into depression. I thought it lasted for around a month but, looking at my unpublished entries, it appears to be closer to two months. Time flies, I guess. Here are some notes on what has happened over the final months of 2019. OctoberIn an unpublished …

Out of the Black

I've been fighting a battle with myself. The battle to care or not care, to love or not love, to hate or not hate. I guess I was just getting worn down by it all because I was falling into these bouts of depression. I began to avoid communicating altogether. After all, it was just …

A Casual Conversation About the Affair

At 5:00am Monday morning, Carol woke up to see me browsing on my phone. "What are you doing?" She asked. "Working on the timeline," I said. I looked through Facebook then made some notes on key dates. No longer able to sleep, I started preparing for the day, which would start with getting the kids …

Dinner with The Enemy

It was not a good weekend. To begin with, I've been overworked and all I feel is constant soreness and exhaustion. I need a break from work and I will get one starting this weekend but in the meantime, I'm struggling to make sure all my clients are taken care of first. I'm tired and …

Memories part 2

It's this morning and my stomach hurts. Something I ate, a touch of a virus, who knows. It happens from time to time. It’ll run its course and be gone before I know it. Just like it does with anyone else. It’s the late ‘80’s and my stomach hurts all the time. This will last …

August Chronology of Jack’s Broken Heart

Okay, one more post before my weekend getaway with Carol. Thanks again to everyone for all of your support. Walking the Journey, thank you so much for your insightful comments, you are amazing! I bounce around the timeline quite a bit in my posts, so I like to occasionally organize my story in as close …

When the Dark Cloud Lifts and the Truth Shines Through

I've covered a lot of ground in these blog posts already but there are gaps in the timeline. There's over 6 years of a marriage breaking down under my nose. There were many great memories in that time and a handful of bad ones. Ones that made me think, this marriage is doomed. Do I …

Anniversary Weekend

I tried to do a condensed version but there's no way around it. I need to be as thorough as possible about our conversation. It's important. If you've been cheated on and are working on reconciliation, you need to have these kinds of talks. It's not easy but if you truly love each other and …

The Nightmare part 1

Carol was visiting her good friend, Kelly. I called her from the parking lot outside the doctor’s office. If my brain was functioning properly, I’d have known to wait until we were both home and told her in person. But right now, I was only an outside observer, watching myself do these things. “Hi honey!” …

2 Months Later…

When Carol brought the kids back from camping, I was elated. They shared their stories with me and I told Carol of my weekend adventures, omitting the details of my incident for the time being. The rest of the week went on as usual. We spent overlapping time with the kids and Carol always went …