Progress? Part 1

A few things happened over the past few weeks that led up to what I think may be a little bit of progress towards healing, something like dipping my toe into the healing waters. It’s hard to say, given that I’m still very much emotionally shut down most of the time. I think writing it …

What’s Been Going On? December

Feeling even worse, I wrote an entry about the darkness inside but again, I left it in my drafts, then I published an entry about how I almost opened up to my wife. At some point after the dark clouds started to clear, seemingly on their own, but I made sure to book another appointment …

Weekend Adventures, Learning to Love Again

During the week, I put in my time at my job then I come home and work towards my goal of turning one of my hobbies into a career. Then on the weekends, we find something to do as a family. It's a good routine now. The ideal would be cutting the job out of …

New Year’s – Party Time

When I got home after my therapy appointment, I sat down with Carol to talk about all that happened. "I'm still angry a lot of the time. Have you noticed?" I asked her. "No, but I understand. I feel like throwing up a lot. It'll just hit me out of nowhere," Carol replied. I told …

December 2018 – Christmas

The family got home from vacation and now we had one week of work and school to deal with before the Christmas holidays. It was a busy week that included some final shopping for me but I also had a massage and a hypnotherapy session in there to make sure I was taking care of …