What’s Been Going On? December

Feeling even worse, I wrote an entry about the darkness inside but again, I left it in my drafts, then I published an entry about how I almost opened up to my wife. At some point after the dark clouds started to clear, seemingly on their own, but I made sure to book another appointment …

What’s Been Going On? October – November

It seems that, starting in October, I began to slip into depression. I thought it lasted for around a month but, looking at my unpublished entries, it appears to be closer to two months. Time flies, I guess. Here are some notes on what has happened over the final months of 2019. OctoberIn an unpublished …

Out of the Black

I've been fighting a battle with myself. The battle to care or not care, to love or not love, to hate or not hate. I guess I was just getting worn down by it all because I was falling into these bouts of depression. I began to avoid communicating altogether. After all, it was just …

Reflecting on an Undocumented Session

The last time I saw HT in therapy, I didn't provide the full details of the session in a blog post. We mostly discussed my health but at the end of the session, there was an exchange about Carol that I've been thinking about: "She had to do something so terrible to realize that what …

Worlds Collide

On an evening this past week, I brought the kids to out to watch Carol participate in her rec league sport. I don't do this very often, only if she has an early game. She plays on a team with Doreen. Their mother, my mother-in-law, plays on another team. They happened to be playing against …

A Year of Blogging part 1 – Healing

It's been a year since I started this blog. A lot has happened in my life. A lot has changed. Hell, a lot has changed in the month of June alone. No, nothing major on the outside, all is more or less the same on that front, but on the inside, I feel there has …

Trauma Reversal

I gave HT a summary of my vacation with Carol, not unlike the one I provided in my most recent post. She asked me about the day after I over drank. "I told her I was just worried that she would think less of me from seeing me not at my best, but really, I …

Graduation

I received a text from Carol. She was going to be late for our appointment. When I got there, I spent some time chatting with MC about my therapy. I told her that we have mostly done talking sessions with just a couple hypnotherapy sessions so far. MC was particularly interested in the hypnotherapy so …

Thoughts Before Our Next Session

Last night, I talked to Carol about our upcoming marriage counselling session. "So, what do you think there will be to discuss at our session?" I asked. "I'm not sure," Carol replied. It's always difficult to start these conversations with her. It takes a bit to get her talking. We had a little back and …

Learning to Love Again

What can I say? Things have been really good. We've made a ton of progress over these last seven months or so. I had a great hypnosis session with which I had a lot of fun finding a creative way to write about. This week, we will see our marriage counsellor for the first time …